It’s March! I’m so happy that February is finally over. I don’t know about you, but it felt like February lasted forever. February was not kind to me either. I got sick in the final days of the month and I’m only now starting to feel better. Thank you for all the well wishes. They meant a lot to me. I’m glad it’s all going away. It’s all in good timing too. I have a lot going on these first couple of weeks in March and then some more stuff in the final weeks. I know that I’m going to be faced with several challenges this month, but I believe that I’m capable of handling them. In fact, I look forward to them. This month we’ll finally start to see some warmer weather, well, once this Titan passes us. sigh
It’s that time of the week when I’m expected to step on my scale and share with you my progress. I’ve done that for 11 weeks now, but this week I decided not to. I’ve decided to cancel my weigh-in Wednesday posts indefinitely. This wasn’t a rash decision — I’ve thought about it long and hard.
As much as I wanted to believe otherwise, I was just not completely free from my number. I’d begun to feel pressure to produce great numbers. I don’t know how much of that pressure was real or imagined, but I figure it’s best to put a stop to it before it got to be too much. Also, I don’t think I was helping any of you by sharing numbers. It’s hard to not compare ourselves and I wouldn’t want any of you to get hurt somehow by comparing yourselves to me. I also felt like a hypocrite when I’d tell some of you that the number on the scale doesn’t matter (it didn’t) and then I’d parade my weekly weigh-in. I don’t know — it just felt wrong to me. That being said, I will be keeping track of my weight loss on a “whenever I feel like it basis” on MyFitnessPal and those measurements (whenever they’re taken) will be posted under my “Progress” tab.
I’ll repurpose my Wednesdays for reflection on the previous week or whatever interests me. I feel like you guys know a good deal about me, but not much of what I do and who I am. Perhaps I’ll use Wednesdays for that. 🙂 Let’s start right now!…
I love to read. In the summer, you’re likely to find me with my face in a book. That’s what I like to do. Reading calms me. I love to escape and reading provides that for me. I’ve always has an affinity for reading. When I was in kindergarten, my teacher suggested that I read books with a cassette tape so that I could learn English. I kept that habit until I was in second grade. Each week, I looked forward to checking out a book from the school’s library. It was always an experience for me. As a child, one of my favorite books was Rainbow Fish by Marcus Pfister. I read that book numerous times. Naturally, as I’ve gotten older, my tastes have matured and I’m interested in a variety of genres. I don’t have a favorite because each book provides something different for me. It’d almost be like picking a favorite song — it’s almost impossible. Currently, I have several books and I aspire to collect enough to fill up my dream library which looks something this:
But I’ll gladly settle for this:
Anyway, enough of that. Have a WONDERFUL Wednesday, my loves! Day 3 of being sick is kicking my butt so I’ll be continuing my bed rest. 😦
Until next time,
This is so true. It’s so easy to appear in control in front of others, but we all have deeper layers that hold our true selves.
After a particularly busy weekend, I’ve decided to spend today in the most simple way possible — in bed. I think I’m coming down with a cold or something. Everyone around me has been sick, but I’d managed to stay bug free until now. I also decided to take diabetic medicine, you know, because DayQuil has too many carbs, sugars, calories, etc. That was a mistake. The medicine is still making me gag and now I’m worn out from squirming. This day could have gone a million times better. Anyway, I hope you all are having a better day.
Until next time,
These past few days I’ve been doing a lot of shopping. No, let me rephrase that — these past few days I’ve been doing a lot of gauging. I’d go into a store, pick up several jeans and sheepishly walk over to the fitting rooms. Slowly, I’d attempt to fit into them. I kept testing the waters, waiting for my bubble to burst and suddenly find myself back where I was almost 50 pounds ago. At the very least I expected this:
…but that never happened! I picked the size lower than my current one and each time I would expect them not to fit. I did this several times over the course of several hours and several stores. They kept fitting quite nicely! I was starting to feel a little giddy. 😉 Anyway, I ended up not buying anything. I didn’t want to shell out money for clothes that I plan to not fit into within a matter of months. It just felt nice to comfortably fit into the size lower and I got a great confidence boost from the whole experience. I can’t wait to return to those stores once I’m maintaining. Heck, I may go before then! 😀
Speaking of confidence, my overall confidence has been on the rise lately. I find that I’m generally more positive and self-assured now. The changes that have occurred in the last few months is startling, but I’ve taken to all of them and I welcome them with open arms. It’s fun to discover who I am “outside” of the weight — it’s almost like unwrapping a gift. Thankfully, I like this Carolina that’s coming out. 🙂
Until next time,